Silence.
That's what's ringing through my head.
He said he made a mistake somewhere along the line in raising me. I'm inconsiderate, lack respect and don't try. That's what he said.
Inconsiderate.
Helping children in a third world country.
Helping the community by volunteering at various places.
Helping friends with homework.
Helping friends with their problems.
Helping strangers in need.
Lack of respect.
I don't use foul language when speaking to adults.
I don't argue with teachers or professors.
I don't look down upon those who aren't my equals.
I don't make fun or harrass the elderly.
I don't point out that the reason things are mess is because of her.
Not trying.
I take ap courses.
I joined more clubs then the average student.
I study when necessary.
I redo things that I mess up on.
I constantly aim for perfection.
I thought I was doing so well. Apparently my best really isn't good enough. All this time I thought I was a pretty good daughter. I've never failed a class. I've never drank, smoked or experimented with drugs. I've never done anything to intentionally hurt them. Given, I forget things sometimes when they tell me to do them, but I'm human. I'm doing the best I can. Perfection isn't as attainable as I would like it to be.
Sorry for being a disappointment.
Really. I'm so, so sorry.
But sorry's an empty word.
Least that's what you told me...
- Dallas
Life isn't easier for other people,
we're just better at faking it.
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The 100 plus 1
001 l Complete this list to the best of my abilities by 11:59 p.m. on December 31st, 2008.
002 l Watch the ball drop in Time Square... in person.
003 l Become a better person.
004 l Play flashlight tag.
005 l Sing in the rain.
006 lRip CD's I don't use anymore,then sell or donate
them.
007 l Improve my artistic skill.
008 l Learn to say 10 random phrases in an uncommon foreign language. (0/10)
009 l Elaborately decorate my yard for either Halloween or Christmas.
010 l Be photographed with a 15 different characters at Disneyland. (0/15)
011 lSpend a day in Sedona.- Completed 1.2.08
012 l Attend Warped Tour.
013 l Take at least one photo a day to keep a record of my year. (19/366)
014 l Get a frame for my Rocky movie poster.
015 l Learn to bake banana bread.
016 l Stay logged off of Myspace for an entire month.
017 l Stop drinking soda all together.
018 l Finish a 1000 piece puzzle.
019 l Meet 20 people who I find to be genuinely unique and/or fascinating. Take a picture of each to keep a record of them. (0/20)
020 l Purchase a shirt that says Free Hugs on it.
021 l TP someone's house.
022 l Solve a Rubik's cube.
023 l Sleep under the stars.
024 l Read 30 books. (1/30)
025 l Dress up for and see the midnight premiere of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince with Nicole.
026 l Help build a house with Habitat for Humanity.
027 l Come up with an absolutely sensational gift for my dad's 50th birthday.
028 l Experience a day filled with extremely good luck and blog about it.
029 l Go an entire day saying absolutely everything I think of out loud. Even if I don't want to.
030 l Reflect on my greatest weakness, and realize how it's my greatest strength.
031 lWrite down my personal mission statement at the beginning of the year,follow it, and revise it from time to time.
032 l Attend at least 5 shows. (1/5)
033 l Watch every season of the Sopranos.
034 l Continue being a veggie and commit to it for at least 5 more months.
035 l Go green.
036 l Write a piece of fan mail.
037 l Take the stairs instead of the elevator at least 10 times.
038 l Attend a major sporting event.
039 l Make mix CD's for four of my closest friends that reflects their personalities.
040 l Compile a list of 100 things to do before I die.
041 l Write a letter of advice to my past self.
042 l Yell "I'm as mad as hell and I'm not going to take this anymore!" in a crowded area.
043 l Celebrate a lesser known holiday.
044 l Spend an entire day completely worry-free.
045 l Participate in the Race for the Cure
again.
046 l Don't say a word in Mr. Also's class for one whole period.
047 l Hang a wind chime on a tree in a parking lot.
048 l Get my body into better shape.
049 l Obtain a minimum of 2 scholarships. (0/2)
050 l Get a job.
051 l Have a huge party for my 18th birthday.
052 l Try to contact someone from my past who I've lost touch with over the years.
053 lMake a fool of myself.- Completed 1.17.08
054 l Purchase at least one item off Cafepress
(cafepress.com).
055 l Sneak into the graveyard at NAU with Chelsy and Nathan and actually get pictures this time.
056 l Finish a crossword out of the
Arizona Republic.
057 lGo hiking.- Completed 1.2.08
058 l Learn to play hackey sack somewhat well.
059 l Treat a friend to lunch.
060 l Get a four or a five on the AP final exam.
061 l Build a gingerbread house.
062 l Attend a showing of the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
063 l Learn how to ski or snowboard.
064 l Win three games of chess.
065 l Eat food from 20 different countries within
a two month time frame. (0/20)
066 l Get my license, and drive Kevin somewhere as a
reward for helping me make this list.
067 l Learn how to properly hit a golf ball and wield a club from my grandfather.
068 l Help a stranger out who seems to be having a bad day.
069 l Fill my entire sketchbook.
070 l Fly a kite.
071 lGet rid of 50 items I no longer need. (50/50)- Completed 1.9.08
072 l Learn how to play Halo.
073 l Compile a list of 100 things I learned this year progressively throughout the year.
074 l Gauge my ears at least to a size 10.
075 l Take Bri trick-or-treating.
076 lFrame and hang at least five photos I'm proud of.- Completed 1.5.08
077 l Donate blood.
078 l Perform something on stage.
079 lActually do my math homework.- Completed 1.5.08
080 l Participate in Gimme Your Stuff (gimmeyourstuff.blogspot.com).
081 l Put together a photography portfolio.
082 l See the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus live, for the 3rd
time.
083 l Carve a pumpkin on Halloween.
084 l Learn how to use every little thing on my Rebel XTi.
085 l Take too many pictures.
086 lSay "I love you" to someone and have them say it back.- Completed 1.11.08
087 l Go sledding, seeing as I never have.
088 l Start a personal college fund, rather than relying 100 percent on the one my mother's developed for me.
089 l Take a family portrait.
090 l Complete an act of random kindness a month.
091 l Spend a day at the zoo.
092 l Learn to cook 10 vegetarian recipes. (0/10)
093 l Find out what my blood type is.
094 l Go on a picnic with a friend.
095 l Eat breakfast everyday for a month, considering I almost never do.
096 l Get to expert level on Guitar Hero 3.
097 l Stop being so damn picky.
098 l Apologize a minimum of 5 times. (0/5)
099 l Donate a dollar to a cause of my choosing for each uncompleted goal.
100 l Take an ariel shot of individuals making a peace sign.
101 l Be able to say that, as a result of my efforts, I've grown as a person & discovered a part of me.
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